February 14th, 2008

flying man

time to hang up my little tin star

I am getting too old for some things.

It's not an age thing, it's just realizations from time to time that I don't want to (or shouldn't) deal with certain stuff any more, or deal with certain stuff in a certain way. Maybe I see that little good comes from following a habit I usually follow, so I make an effort to change it. I think I am making progress and evolving and a human, but I guess only time will tell on that.

I'm not getting too old to play drinking games, though. I was at Erin's place recently with a bunch of friends, playing Kings. One of the rules allows a certain player to be "thumb master," who can put his thumb on the table at any time. As other players see this, they follow suit, and the last person to thumb up has to drink.

Betsy was to my right, and I noticed that even though she wasn't thumb master, she kept her thumb on the table preemptively, so I started harrassing her about it, which launched a round of escalating name-calling and insults, all good-natured and slurred through a haze of inebriation. But for some stupid reason it bugged me a bit. Drunkenly self-righteous, I informed her that such behavior was not sportsmanlike. Of course, she continued to do it throughout the evening just to goad me, like any friend would.

I have a tendency to play thumb sheriff elsewhere, always the same circumstances: situations in which I have no business and no authority, and usually no effect. I used to do it a lot more often when I was a kid, when it was more important to me, imperative even, that everyone follow same rules. Who knows why, maybe it was because I wasn't clever enough to think of a way around the rules or to use them to my advantage, maybe I was honor-bound by the idealistic childhood concept of "fair."

These days, when I play thumb sheriff it's usually while I'm driving, which is stupid, as if it's worth endangering lives to demonstrate to someone that he's driving like an idiot. I am too old for this. As with small bikes, there are other options. Time to hang it up.

Thumb it, Teabag. :)

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